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Naughty mushrooms doing theirs again, they are so good. I got remembered I never was the uninspired believer in a mechanical world I had become, and turned back to animist knower - a lot of what you write resonates very much with me! Congrats to getting out of the rat race, faraway friend. Cautious as well with the little prankstershrooms. Remember grounding inbetween flights. So many people are getting out - once we get together we will be unstoppable!

That must be the most encouraging thing I’ve read in a while. Sounds like a fairly good future.

I got into and forced my way through a degree in EE just to prove I could as a foreign student working mother. Dropped out after half the time in part due to burnout, in part due to loss of motivation.

Learned a million different things (literally from basket weaving to drone racing) all stored away or suffering from lack of time after figuring out how to do them well. These days I’m between pretty decent and almost hopeless at everything. Want a mediocre wooden bed? A fairly good bathroom with mosaic art? A vegetable garden? A small computer program?

I sometimes wonder what this ADHD thing is good for, for sure it must have some purpose? It’s like I’m waiting for the big conclusion of something that connects all the things I have been picking up throughout the years.

It’s supposed to be for print out, cut out, stick on cars.

Yup, this. And because old habits tend to die hard. To redesign this without body shaming I am looking for other, non-genital related associations that make suv drivers just as fucking mad

This reminds me very much of Riddley Walker, have you read it?

Is physics true now? Is truth something with exactly defined borders?

It’s great to be able to run a server with functioning stuff on it when one doesn’t know anything about servers. Anything else around self-hosting would have been too much of an intimidating learning curve for me, but in the meantime I’ve picked up a lot of knowledge and terminology just by running the YH. It’s like training wheels, it’s great if you know a bit of tech stuff, but not enough.

I think it will last me a while before I outgrow it, don’t have enough time to really sit down and study server administration to the point where I feel safe to not fuck it up. I’ll let you know 😅

Are they anti-container or just anti-Docker, I wonder?

Just before your post about Karrot I finally (re-)installed Agora on Yunohost as a collaboration suite. First few users onboarded and praying it works. It’s a bit ugly but does the job. Karrot looks to be more map-focused than Agora from a very fleeting look, I don’t think I’ve seen it in the Yunohost catalogue.

Is this a self-hostable platform? I just see a signup option.

My grandfathers were probably still saying it while already marching eastwards in a Wehrmacht uniform.

You sometimes need rest? Don’t try to work harder, try to work less. Your body and brain might be telling you it’s recovery time.

I know I can force myself to be more productive, and can work really hard, and will eventually reach burnout, because I force myself to work hard really efficiently. So yes, I found some ADHD brainhack to study, work, raise a kid and tend a small farm, all at same time. It worked great for about 7 years, then my energy was depleted.

Nowadays the only thing I’ll get busy for is fighting for the 4-day work week and against the productivity myths people tell themselves.

Have you talked about this with your in-real-life persons? Or are you making a brave face while crumbling inside? Maybe it’s time to open up not just online but to someone who is in this with you - and especially the people affected by your struggle. More often than not the opening up already eases some of the load, and often people around you can offer different kinds of support.

If your day hasn’t hours enough to handle everything there’s probably too much. Is there anything you really don’t have to do?

ADHD, like ASD, seem to both have this magnetic force that keep one locked to the current activity, which in your case seems to be ‘thinking about the issues’. Your imminent quest is to break the magnetic force of ‘activity A - thinking about the issues’ and shift towards ‘activity B’ - doing the things that solve the issues’. When trying to make this shift I find myself scared of not having thought about the issues enough - but when I act it always sorts out well, way better than if I had remained paralyzed.

Set up proper resting hours. In these resting hours there’s two modes: one where you enjoy activities that completely force the problems out of your mind, and another where the problems you have to solve are permitted to lightly float in your mind while you enjoy doing something else. You need a bit of both, find out which activities and ratios work best for you. Going outdoors, physical activities, arts, crafts, gaming, … are some activities that could be helpful in breaking the mindlock. Sometimes it’s helpful to do something unusual. For example, take a reeeally long walk. Or participate in a soap making workshop. This helps to break the strongly ingrained brain patterns that won’t let you out of the rumination thought mill.

Thanks a lot for sharing this. I’ll keep it bookmarked for later reference, looks very cool!

Interesting writeup, thanks for sharing! Friendica seems … friendly and reassuringly boring, I did a test install and will have a look at the details in the next days.

I think most storytelling in most entertainment is pretty fucked up. Another comment mentioned torture scenes in kids animated movies, I might want to add rape scenes in pretty much every episode of every TV series (often excused as historical realism).

Lately I got ultra-annoyed at how propaganda-y every police series is. Even the ones where police is depicted as corrupt, like for example The Wire. The criminals are always shown as a little more evil than even the most rotten cop. I can’t stand that anymore.

There is not a single show or movie I’ve seen recently that didn’t have this shit in it. I’m so tired at being sold this cheap, stupid, uncreative, misogynistic, always-the-same crap. Please tell me what to watch anymore.

Return to Donke school of solarpunk

As a proponent of said school I really needed this term to exist, thanks! 😂

I am very lucky, and very privileged to be able to do what I do. Living in EU vs US helps, having few expenses and very few needs really helps. Being very reclusive as well, I really had to spend a long time just with my small family and animals to come to terms with how limited my ability to handle other people is. If I ever feel like going out again I’d start setting up a repair café and swap shop, but I will have to limit stuff like this to one day a week probably or will go into burnout again. I mean, even too much online interaction like commenting on Lemmy sets me into some weird frenzy I have to recover from lol

I guess I had always my animals to give me enough structure to not completely lose it, then my child. It’s like an override. Even now with child almost grown and only spending half his time here, you wouldn’t believe how much better I eat when he is here compared to when he’s not, just because I want to make sure I feed him well and set a good example. And I never fail getting up because the animals need feeding - imagine a horse neighing and two donkeys braying when they consider it’s getting a little late. Like having a boss, but with a really fluffy nose and generally nicer and less annoying.