dianne

What exactly is an “emotional outburst” for you?

There are a lot of things this could mean, ranging from more benign (sobbing) to extreme or scary (throwing things or screaming or worse)

If it’s anywhere near the latter then you need to figure out how to manage those symptoms of your mental illness before you’re ready for a relationship.

Today is my birthday.

My mom has small cell lung cancer and is halfway across the US with my older brother. She has been mentally deteriorating for a while and they forgot my birthday. I get it because there is a lot going on with her disease, it’s just hard to see her so broken that she forgot.

My favorite food is artichokes and no store had them in stock, so I’m just gonna have steak and squash instead. Was at least hoping this would be an upside and now it’s not lol

IDK. It’s been an okay day I guess, I feel bad for my mom mostly. Getting older is hard.

Yes kill with kindness was going to be my suggestion. I also agree with not interacting with her unless she’s directly trying to discuss something with you.

Also, if she says you’re doing something wrong, instead of just trying harder or ignoring her, just ask her to show you the best way to do it. People like people who ask them for favors, and this might make her warm up to you some. If it’s bad enough that you don’t want to be at work, you could also consider asking for a shift change. Be kind, be as strong as you can manage, and ignore if you need to.

I think mostly because it was unexpected for his age, usually questions like that came from much older people and it was surprising to me that someone barely older than me didn’t understand web based email. He seemed like a smart competent dude, so it was just not an answer my brain was ready for. Laughing might not be the best gauge for anything for me, laughing is also my fear response.

I sold computers at best buy for a few years around a decade ago, and this particular experience burned itself into my brain:

Me: introduce myself, ask what he was looking for Guy in his 30s: wants to look at chromebooks Me: tries finding out what he’s using it for to make sure it’ll be enough Guy: web browsing mostly, asks me if he can get his email on it Me: yeah no problem, what email client do you use now Guy: Gmail

It was hard to not laugh, but I am reminded of this when I think of the average person’s technical ability.

Well week 2 of “potentially going to just end up homeless” is pretty shit too. Looked at a house an hour away, it was awful, roof in disrepair, the guy was living in one room and smoking in it after his divorce so the whole house smelled like smoke, there was moss growing in a window. Multiple other issues. Noped out of that one.

Stared at realtor site longer.

One gets listed that’s perfect, it meets every single one of our needs and isn’t a long commute, we go look, put in an offer. We have the highest offer. Our agent calls saying the realtor says if we can offer a gap coverage if the house appraises lower we’ll be close, we can do a small gap (5k) and still have enough to close. She calls back later, apparently they’re now between us and another offer, but they have a higher gap so if we can offer 10k and extend closing date we’ll probably get it. Talk to family, they say we can borrow 3k if necessary, great we have just enough.

Nope they did the same thing to the other buyer and increased the gap and chose them.

I just want to give up. Fuck all of this, fuck shitty landlords and fuck scummy real estate agents, fuck the housing market, fuck not having enough money, fml

Removing ourselves from a shitty situation is not anti free speech. They are free to say whatever they want, and I am free to not have to read it. If you want to interact and read it you are free to go there.

Look at how free we all are.

Fucking ugh. This week is just ugh. Our landlady has brain cancer (our rent is currently about half what apartments are going for in our city, they doubled during covid) and I’m not sure if she’s passed or not but her adult son has taken over the building with his wife and as of Tuesday have given us notice that at the end of the month we’ll get a letter giving us 60 days to move out (month to month lease). We just had a second child in January. They’re kicking us out with a five month old so they can renovate our apartment and charge double.

So instead of paying a ridiculous amount to rent somewhere again we’re attempting to buy a house, but the housing market up here is super tight and they’re all going way over asking price within days. I don’t know what we’re gonna do if we can’t find something suitable in the next week or two so we have time to get this all done in time to move. We do have really good credit and enough to close, but finding one that isn’t a failed flip or looks like it’s from the 70s or isn’t snatched up immediately is wearing on me.

Everything needs to line up and it’s just not right now. I haven’t cried yet so I guess that’s alright.