There is no meaning. We make are own meaning arbitrarily. That’s what it means to be human, ND or not.
Work on your CBT, work on medication if needed, go through the day working on little wins, they add up to big ones without even realizing it.
Also make sure you sleep right. People harp on eating and working out but I found a great spot with a good medicine regimen which also helped me start and end the days right. Adderall XR 30mg, Clonidine, and Nortryptyline ftw. The Naltrexone helped a ton with cutting down on the alcohol self medication.
Feeling little guilts constantly is the default for a lot of people, I’d wager more people than not. It’s how we prime our brains to do the things we don’t want to do. Most NT people just don’t have as big an issue with it. It’s comforting knowing almost everyone has that issue but still get along in their days relatively fine. It puts me at ease knowing everyone else is in their own little world too. Even the people closest to me.
Fire Toolbox is the only one that I’m familiar with. It’s less cleanup and more hiding a bunch of stuff. Adding a bootloader and disabling some of the Amazon tracking.
I don’t think there’s any programs that allow you to straight up nuke the Amazon firmware and side?load your own android or tablet OS.